i almost forgot about this, but i have a dream to record before it fades away.

last night i had such a marvelous dream. it was not only marvelous-- it was heartbreaking.

it began when i walked into my old high school, but instead of a school it was also a dorm and a ymca, complete with its own graveyard (this is dreamland, remember?).

i had to run to each graveyard and locate the tombs of several specific people and then head back inside before i could enter the pool.

and when i walked into the ymca aquatics area, i saw several of my friends sitting in a hot tub. and against the wall sat the person i miss more than anything in the world. the person whose death marked the end of my childhood, the person whom i could confide in. and somehow i knew that i only had a few hours with him.

and i just couldn't stop crying.

all of these visitation dreams are so wonderful.

it was beautiful.

things were alive and moving and even though it broke my heart, it reminded me that i had one.

thank you so much for the visit.

i know you're being taken care of.