'well all that icing on all that cake...'

-bukowski, modest mouse

dear lawd i could listen to that one line for hours.

such musical genius.

isaac brock's voice sounds like bugs.

i can just see a stream of worms and maggots and ants pouring from between his lips,

writhing and slithering and squirming.

it's amazing.

and why am i so fascinated with bukowski?

i've only read one book and an assortment of poetry.

yes, it is splendidly blunt and profound, but i seem to have a real penchant for all things bukowski.

oh well.

fuckyeahallisonharvard.tumblr.com

because everyone knows she should have won.

and definitely not buttface mcgee.

v) she thought of the brothers and sisters

wailing through the window,

gurgling in the water,

praying through the runoff.

but she could not feed it.

she no longer knew the path---

she could not absorb the water.

a ha ha ha.

because we're all a little nerdy.

shhhhh.

i'm trying to find magic.

i'm eating my feelings.

'cause that's what i'm good at.

mad hatter: alice, you're terribly late, you know. naughty.

and i die.

playlist for today:

-elle panique (obviously): olivia ruiz

-the world at large: modest mouse

-float on: modest mouse

-broken arm: winterpills

-rich kids: adam green

-i'm a pilot: fanfarlo

-juno: tokyo police club

-stars of leo: m. ward

-cayman islands: kings of convenience

-missed the boat: modest mouse

i know, a modest mouse day.

OLIVIA RUIZ -Elle Panique

looklet.com

oh so much fun.

http://randomgotbeautiful.com/

playlist for today:

(like anyone cares)

-house jam: gang gang dance

-this heart is a stone: acid house kings

-houses: great northern

-air mattress: conor oberst and the mystic valley band

-so haunted: cut copy

-the night starts here: stars

-sad song (pacific remix): au revoir simone

-sum: au

-hummingbird: born ruffians

-upon this tidal wave of young blood: clap your hands say yeah

gah.

i'm probably the most awkward person on the face of the planet.

my bones jiggle and my jaw bounces.

playlist for today.
- lounge (closing time): modest mouse
- rainbowarriors: cocorosie
- feather in a baseball cap: architecture in helsinki
- cherry tulips: headlights
- nancy boy: placebo
- living in america: the sounds
- are animals: au
- the flood, pt. i: the acorn
- black river killer: blitzen trapper
- oh shot: the gay blades
- uber legitimate: mates of state
- split needles (alt version): the shins
- buggin': the flaming lips
- water curses: animal collective
- i am constellation: the kingdom
- geography: thao & the get down stay down
- digital love (daft punk cover): alphabeat
- little sally tutorial: the blow
- good ol' fashioned nightmare: matt & kim
- college: animal collective

iv) and so the child grew,

quiet and soft

as he faded back into the soil,

his emptied cup watering the tired mother,

seeping through the earth.

her children gathered closely

to caress her arms and whisper through the leaves,

comforts sprouting from their weary tongues.

iii) its life was a gift.

she knew of the mother's sacrifice,

knew this was all he had.

finally something weaker for her to nourish,

to teach the ways of love.

oh this is such an unbelievably sad and beautiful and joyous picture.

how can we really be denied eternity and then awaiting the end of it all?

i'm alive, right?

things will get easier, right?

ii) expression withered between his lips.

he gagged slowly, instinctively, helplessly.

tipping over the glass of water would come

(he feared)

too soon.

and so he hid his fears in the silent girl,

planting them one by one.

if I never see you again
I will always carry you
inside
outside

on my fingertips
and at brain edges

and in centers
centers
of what I am of
what remains.

-bukowski

i) he hated to hurt it--

carving its body,

slicing through its flesh.

but its mother just nodded

as he separated the roots and

cradled the child.

she knew he would tend her baby

and teach her child the ways of love.

and not a unicorn.

...try to communicate
cause i wanna procreate

-mouth full of bones by natalie portman's shaved head

to you (oh you know who you are haha)

because this is the absolute best and most ridiculous rhyme ever.

BAM!

how about yesterday i was going to download the gossip cd, but i ran out of credits in itunes

(boo).

AND NOW THE FRIGGIN' SINGLE OF THE WEEK IS HEAVY CROSS!!!!!

thank you, music gods.

so what if i like this song?

so what if i like to dance around in my room?

they're pretty neat.

yeah for new wave czechs, right?

for some reason these girls remind me of rebecca and enid from ghost world.

dunno.

i think the ghost world girls are cooler, though.

especially in the graphic novel.

especially when they follow the suspected satanists.

oh oh and enid is especially cool when she wears the batman mask.

like i said, these girls are only pretty neat.

haha

another one.

beautiful collection.

everything is so sharp and clean and symmetrical.

wow.

happy birthday to me.

ohmygoodness.

this is just too weird.

the same day i watch 'the talented mr. ripley' and then the sartorialist posts this.

oh, sartorialist.

you read my mind.

my little fashion-loving, movie-watching mind.

here ---> http://thesartorialist.blogspot.com/

i want to hold your hand hand hand hand hand

ok 13 of about 40 channels are currently showing michael jackson's memorial.
this is just ridiculous.
i know he was the 'king of pop' and an icon, but this is a little over-the-top.
i'm not sure if i needed hyphens in that last word there, but i am much too tired and lazy to look up the proper punctuation.

oh.
i've finally gotten around to it, and i can honestly say i despise the video for mgmt's amazingly fun song, kids.
i don't see how this video is appealing or inspiring or scary or funny or anything.
it's just stupid.
the song had so much potential, and i can understand that they didn't want to go with the conventional rave/party video that would have matched the song's vibrancy, but come on, people!
the fan created video was much more entertaining, and i think it fit the song well.
this new concoction of mutilated body parts and disfigured people in some child's strange world does not seem like something most people would want to see. it's not even done in an artistic manner. i, for one, am not into blood and gore, but if it were done properly i could see myself enjoying this video.
i know it's supposedly based on that mark twain quote and all, but still.
i just don't think it was carried out properly.
and on all of the youtube pages hosting this video, no one comments about how awesome the video is or how crazy amazing the monsters were. everyone comments on how that child will need therapy because he has a strange and disturbed psyche.
i, too, have a strange and disturbed psyche after watching this horrible video.
the only plus i can find in this fail of a video is that joanna newsom plays the negligent mother.
she's pretty cool, so i can forgive some of the awfulness in favour of her appearance.
but boo.
boo mgmt.
a video is supposed to be a visual representation of a song, and although there are very few videos that i actually approve of to properly represent the music, i thought mgmt would be able to pull something amazing out of their trippy asses.
oh, mgmt.
it's ok.
the video may be a disappointment, but i continue to listen to oracle spectacular and i will probably fall victim to the next album.
just make it catchy.

everything was beautiful. nothing hurt.
-kurt vonnegut

you're the strangest person i ever met, she said

and i said you too

and we decided we'd know each other a long time.

(storypeople.com)

why is everything so simulatenously beautiful and unbearable?