Monday, November 30, 2009

movies i would enjoy seeing
(please feel free to suggest others!)
-lying
-dark room theatre
-untitled
-the fantastic mr. fox
-gummo
-bottle shock
-tokyo!
-the imaginarium of doctor parnassus
-good hair
-adam
-funny ha ha
-mutual appreciation
-the triplets of belleville
-wristcutters: a love story
-the life aquatic

Sunday, November 29, 2009

sometimes there's so much beauty in the world I feel like i can't take it, like my heart's going to cave in.
-ricky fitts, american beauty
this thanksgiving break my family ventured out west to las vegas.
my soul feels a bit grimy for going to such a hedonistic place, but i suppose it's quite like college. the parallels are shocking, i'm sad to admit.
but while there, we saw a performance of cirque du soleil's 'o'.
wow.
no wonder it's named 'o,' for that's the shape your mouth remains in for the entire two hour performance.
in a way what was most beautiful about the show was the strange dream-like familiarity that permeated the set, music, costuming, and dancing.
everything was spectacular.
and also horribly sad. all of the contortionists and acrobats and dancers had such amazing talents that i felt sad knowing they could no longer derive satisfaction simply from walking or standing.
who would want to walk on two feet when you can fly or twist or dance so wonderfully?
and knowing that there would be other shows just like it-- other performances of 'o' sparked a bit of jealousy within me.
i didn't want anyone else to share in such an amazing display.
just as everything and everyone around me had dissapated as i watched the show, i wanted the others who would see the show to dissipate into the rest of the writhing mass that is las vegas and to put away their dollar bills and their cell phones and to not treat the show simply as some sort of entertainment.
it was so much more than that.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Sunday, November 22, 2009

why did i have to see that picture?
why did i become attached?
my heart hurts.
my best friend is the most wonderful person in the entire world!

Friday, November 20, 2009

i would just like to take a moment to commemorate the lovely life of my dear friend, audrey minet. she contributed to the aesthetic world in such a profoundly elegant and true way--

audrey, you will truly be missed.
xoxo forever

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

8 1/2, right?
i'm so tired of saying i'm sick just so that people will leave me alone.
i'm tired of making up excuses for social events i know i can't handle.

Monday, November 16, 2009

mmmmmmmmm
get out of work!
i want to go watch the meteor shower!
reading list:
-the architecture of happiness
-letters to a young poet
-what we talk about when we talk about love
-transparenz
-point, line, and plane
- the collapse of cities
-pensees
-snuff
-demonology

yes.
oh, monologue.
you are impossible to write.
i should write a monologue instead about how writing a monologue is frustrating.

or i could just write a paper about how awful bram stoker's dracula was.
completely dreadful.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Friday, November 13, 2009

'everything is blooming most recklessly.'

my love for rainer maria rilke is blooming as well.
harold is so good looking.

oh boy.
he's just wonderful!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

there's something so entirely and perfectly whole about how i feel right now.
it's inexplicably sad for all of the beauties i will never experience and the loves i wish i could have.
and yet i couldn't imagine wanting to be any other way.
sorry, ryan.
i just had to post this too.
i'm going to have nightmares tonight, but it's well worth it.
oh, claymation!
how you terrify me!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

wa ho
wa ho
it's off to waffle house we go
we'll play some mash
and get some hash
browns
wa ho
wa ho
wa ho
wa ho

Thursday, November 5, 2009

well fine.
i've never been mad before.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Tuesday, November 3, 2009


























oh, miss minet.
this needs to be our mascot, mk?
wow.
have i really been sitting in the dark for so long?
i've always enjoyed daft punk's music, but after playing an awesome (no, EPIC) radio show, i have come to realize my deep, deep love for daft punk.
i have respected them for such a long time, what with all of the mask, genre-creating goodness, but i never really have spent good time listening to their music. i mean, i have, but mostly in passing and being like 'oh yeah, that's a fun daft punk song.'
discovery has been playing non-stop on my ipod and in itunes.

someone is eating something that does not smell particularly good.
and i'm in the library.
the fourth floor.
this is supposed to be the clean, quiet area.
i usually place noiseless in the same category as smell-less, but i guess people like to eat up here.
i am quite hungry.

anyways, back to studying and daft punk goodness.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

rocky horror made me feel so free.
i'm so sick of all of this.
i really don't connect to 99% of the population.
i'm trying so hard to be happy.